This morning when I get to work, I had my heart set on having a good day. Yesterday I reset a display and thought it looked great. This morning one of my bosses tears it up. Didn't even say, "Good Morning". I understood his rational, but I have a big problem with criticism sometimes. I know I'm not perfect. I know I'm not the best. The problem is when I'm particularly proud of something and either no on notices or they trash it. My whole world gets turned upside down. I felt like nothing. He wasn't mean or rude about it. He just explained why it didn't work and that I should change it.
As the morning progressed I focused on other things that needed to be done. After a while the same manager comes back and asks how I was doing, and gave me a compliment about something else. I realized that he was just doing his job and had no intention of breaking my little fragile heart.
After work I came home to do some school shopping with my girls. The little one ran off with my mother and brother to the mall. The big one went out with a friend. That left me to do it all alone. I guess it was for the best. I only bought what was on the list, because for some strange reason when I go to the store with my ladies I always spend more then I intend to. I guess I can't say no to them.
I'll tell you who I can say no to, me. Everytime I'm out and I see something that I really want. I start to talk myself out of it. Today I looked at some PCs. I'm going to need one and I have the money. Then I start thinking about what else I could buy with the money. I end up leaving with nothing. I wish I was selfish like other people. Folks that stay fresh with designer clothes, expensive shoes and fancy jewelry, but they're kids look unkempt.
I did manage to do one thing for myself today. I finally got a haircut. The last to times I went, the lady that cuts my hair was off. Then another time I couldn't find parking. Today she was there and finally got it cut. The best part of course is the shampoo after. She goes in, relaxes the hell out of me. She used some conditioner with mint in it, my head was cool and tingly.
Overall it was decent Friday. I've had far worse and slightly better, let's see what tomorrow holds for me.
"The world is still spinnin, no matter how BIG a tragedy, man and womankind still exist no matter how LOST we are as a human race. So that means God is LOVE and so are we" - J. Ramirez
I'm like that too - with criticism, but art school has helped me get tougher skin. My work is subjective and not everyone is going to love it all the time. It's all good though cause when I get big - they ALL will "love" it, or at least they'll act like it.
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