Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Leave No Flowers

Forego the parade. I'm no fucking hero. When I go, leave no flowers. Don't let someone that didn't really know me fabricate a story about how great, humble and likable I was. I don't want a bunch of strangers crying crocodile tears for me. I want my brothers there. Not only my blood brothers, but my life brothers. The guys that have seen me at my best and at my worst. I want them to tell the stories that matter. I want them to remember me the way I was. All the crazy shit I did. My foul mouth and my ginormous heart. 

Tuesday, July 30, 2013


I guess I'm here to stay. the more I wanna leave. the more I realize I have no where to go. I was built to lose. Everyone gets what they want. Me I get the same old song and dance. The day I leave, no one will have suspected it. They will ask themselves, where could he have gone. They would not know what to do. Old reliable will be on a dusty road to a new life. Why would anyone even care. I'm the guy that makes things happen. I'm the guy that does all the work. No one likes me, but without me they will be lost. This what I signed up for. Isn't it? I don't remember agreeing to be everything to everyone. I never agreed to be perpetually invisible.

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Friendship and True Love

Not long ago, God smiled down on one of my best friends, and blessed him with the love of his life. This weekend their love and commitment for each other reached a pinnacle in the form of a wedding. I was witness to their stroll down the aisle. Along with other lifelong friends and family, I noticed the permanent smile on his face and the glimmer in her eye. It was a beautiful ceremony. The little rascals grew up this weekend. We had a blast and I was able to fit into my suit.

Wednesday, July 10, 2013


When I was a the gym today, I noticed something different about myself. I was running on the treadmill and realized that I was actually enjoying it and pushing myself to the limit. About 4 months ago when I decided to drastically change my diet and start living a more active lifestyle, I didn't realize how much I would truly change.

Monday, July 8, 2013

Till Death

What does the term heart and soul mean to you? I think that in everything, some thing or someone can be the heart and soul. I always try to be the heart and soul of every situation in my life, whether it's work, home, family or my circle of friends. Unfortunately I can't say that I am the heart and soul of anything. If anything I'm the conscience. In my crew there is one heart and soul, the glue that keeps us together after all these years.